In the end I saw the beginning of another.

 In the end I saw the beginning of another .

          These days it is the color , just slightly bluish a little. To force the bad habit of always stalker ; lack of willpower I had right now is one thousand . Willpower want to say sorry , I do not have to comply with the commitments on . For those who like a vicious cycle superglue bad habit of waiting to be turn over it.

     This moment, you still worry what ? Worry is the incoming tide , has been beating the sensitive nerves . I'm lazy , and some did not face these trivial and this really troublesome. Then what ? Only one does not change the principle : Change can not accept , and accept change .

     Can not be denied , academic ultimately failed to become the center of my life . I yearn for the direction of the heavy temporarily hampered by a lot of time to start confusion . Final pressure to force that I do, and the rest to fate conclusion. The next challenge , try it wants.

     Then escape , my life has been lived a control freak . I'm still poor expression , perhaps because it often makes some simple things become complicated. Very often think frankly , control freak allow yourself to become stubborn . Sometimes I think to say something, control freak cast a magic stumped . Sometimes want to laugh , to give you a control freak tears . Sometimes I think a good rest, control freak give you insomnia. Sometimes I think love , control freak confiscate your sanity. Control freak ah , so stretch yourself crazy.

note : if you fail in something , just find one to another alternative for reaching on top of what you will be aiming for , just take a little time bit futher and step forward .

Fracture

Fracture

Not "lonely"
One half of the heart happy eighth quarter loss , 
Lonely long been spurned by eccentric exiled ,
Suspected that he had been too lazy did not even resist ,
Anyway, I like a man accustomed to practice and review .

I do not like to compromise but can not become wicked ,
Is a polite laugh tears of humiliation without expression is a kind of self-view
I am probably the third intake of any risk in future , 
So no need to hear any own annoying
After all, the sky is still bright for my dream
later i believe it will be come true .

The end of everything
If you want to complain too far too unreal dream 
Please allow yourself to become stronger .

After this refresh the conflict between black and white
And no third party knows itself as an agreement
Content is secret ,
Referred commitments.

note : never let the world make you down , chased what you want in your life and never let it go , once it gone , it will not come back .

Leaving

Time flies so fast , I have no time to recover .

     Packed heavy luggage , it is time to organize the chaotic mood. Put all the memories and sustenance dismay locked into my mind , and then open up another chapter of exciting.

     Month's warm, unwittingly run out . I admit I was not frugal , but after time thief does not forgive . The only hope , is the next decade they will be what color .

      Broken the habit , I will trash . No reason to smile , I will try to quit. Psychological fear , I will overcome . Think too much time, I will remember you . No power , I will listen to songs humming . Disoriented when the confusion , I will take the wheel . Want your night , I will write blogs.

     Many of the goals to be completed. Many fled in the direction you want . Waiting to be filled with a lot of space . Holding the color wheel , and my heart had a good tune color , only hope destiny pigments.

     I will remember everyone together smile. Those memories are too precious . I am also still working , there is a glimmer of hope to change some opportunities. We all have dreams, but in a different direction only.


   I  will miss my mother dishes , it was so delicious and she is the best chef ever ! and i will always love you mom . Deep in my heart , i don't want to far away from you even an inches . You are my best mom in the entire world and galaxies .

     Tomorrow morning starting slightly ! Destination is the future of the Holy Land . 

note : goodbye to my full house , i was remembering that when i was a kid , i was always together with you but now , i have my second home . and new life  . till we meet again in Disember .

It Obviously

It was a once rampant memory; just never thought it was a crazy, terrible .

Room temperature is very high, and I feel like a long-awaited but not soaked clouds. Seems to have much to say, maybe just no way to talk. Later used to it, it is only carried by the wind, floating ...... Gone with the Wind. Actually, I'm explosive Thunder, and without any notice. Clouds it always endured, after all, it does not understand the rain on the side of the people is a joy, or a disaster. No one seems to know, the clouds did not willingly become a fact clouds.


     「Why you don't let people see the good in you?」
     「Because when people see good, they expect good. And I don't want to have to live up to anyone's expectations. 」

Everything whole dilemma . Some awkward no explanation , misunderstood been distorted only silent. Later it was found out all too complicated, far less than the fact that the surface to see calm. Seen through , inadvertently know more ; perhaps ultimately only be a last laugh expression, regardless of any significance . Then began a little wonder why there are too many half-truths , right and wrong ; many options to making a claim about life choices but surprisingly difficult. In fact, I know everything , I did not stupid ; abandoned simply because do not want to look at what they have sincere people , and things . A lot of things that almost made ​​its position clear , but perhaps others do not 
why ; perhaps disappointed , I suddenly felt everything is at a loss, but for some reason and it is still not angry .

     The mood is very complex and difficult to engage . That as long as a laugh out , crazy one back will be fine , and then I did not discover the problem is solved ; but also some more . Almost can not remember where it all began , when the content of this life go the wrong direction. Why always unpleasant story around this vicious cycle , those words were a joke, innuendo , willful injury ingredient is how the matter ? Not understand , is not to understand ; just do not be too embarrassed.


      Even if you know it's all wrong, you know what needs to be changed need ...... but far from always find direction . Suddenly regret that I did go to this trouble to do some thankless thing, to know even if you're passionate , her friends will not necessarily blood . The higher the expectations , then it will only be disappointed more . Began to panic and start dazed , confused start ; should be how to continue to fight this battle . Finally in the end , who is to accompany you around never left comrades.

p/s : The house gives you a Bridge Is Falling!

Gwiyomi 1 2 3 4 5 6

ASSALAMUALAIKUM

Dah lama tak update blog , sampai dah bersawang dan tak ceria aku tengok blog aku ni , kurang seri . ibarat kalau bilik kat rumah korang tu , korang tinggalkan untuk 20 tahun , pastu korang bukak balik tengok . Dapat gambarkan tak ? macam mana keadaan dia sampai aku pun takleh nak pikir sama ada aku nak masuk atau aku terus bakar je bilik tu , mana tau ada something scary dalam bilik tu lepas 20 tahun tiada berpenghuni , Hantu kak limah ke ? kum kum ke ? ponti anak langsuir ke ? ok tetiba seram lak , gile  ! haha , please jangan fikir yang tak logik sangat kalau tetiba bukak bukak pintu tetiba ada Beyonce ke Aaron Aziz ke dalam tu plak .Memang tak akan ada pon . Hakikatnya mesti korang tak ambik kesah pon dalam hal aku ni, paling baik pun korang akan cakap ayat ayat ala gegedik camni "ade aku kesah" , "it's not my problem dude/bro " , whatever !! " . Dan jawapan aku simple je atas topik pada hari ini , aku buat cenggini je ngan korang pastu setel .

Back to the topic , Macam biasa la orang update blog mesti ada something yang buatkan mereka nak bercerita kat situ , aku pun termasuk jugak la golongan yang suka pok pek pok pek pasal benda benda yang macam tah hape hape untuk di ceritakan . Cerita dia macam ni ,kadang kadang aku pelik jugak la kan , zaman sekarang ni mudah betul orang terpengaruh dengan satu satu benda , yang sekarang ni bila aku bukak facebook, ada saja video Gwiyomi/Kiyomi yang orang share. Membuatkan tetiba, gwiyomi fever pun melanda dunia blog . Dunia Youtube . Dunia Keek . Dan tak lepas Dunia Anita . oke yang last tu takde kena mengena . 

Sampai ada yang share video orang , Ada yang share video sendiri , ada yang buat dokumentari gwiyomi ( yang ni paling takleh blah ),  ada yang anti gwiyomi dari hujung kuku kaki ke hujung helai rambut ,dan sebagainya. First time aku tengok gwiyomi nie dalam Strong Heart di mana ramai artis Kpop buat gwiyomi tuh . Waktu tu seingat aku kat facebook orang belum duk sibuk ber-gwiyomi lagi . tapi orang sibuk cakap pong pang pong pang pasal politik. Thanks gak la pada gwiyomi punya sindrom ni , PRU fever cool down sikit daripada kecoh kecoh. Haha . hakikat sebenarnya aku mmg tak suka sangat berpolitik ni . Sebab bukan jiwa guwa kut . takleh masuk . Sebab tu aku dapat A- bagi subjek pengajian malaysia kat universiti . 

Pada aku , bebenda viral nie memang tak best. Lagi-lagi negara orang punya .

Terasa loser sangat bila terfikir kenapa orang negara aku tak terfikir nak invent bebenda viral macam nie . Orang Malaysia nie tak kreatif ker? Takkan reti berpolitik jer kot ? Oh my Malaysia  . please .

*sentap sendiri*

Nak ikutkan ada jer iklan iklan yang viral. Cuma viral kat Malaysia jer la . Belum lagi sampai International . Setakat usop wilcha ritu oke kot , bahang juga aku rasa . tapi aku rasa belum masanya lagi . To make Malaysians not feeling so loser for not making anything viral ,

aku sebagai perdana menteri di barisan pencadang , mencadangkan bahawa..

sesedap dia nak bakar blog aku 

rakyat Malaysia reramai buat video. hahaha . perasan jadi menteri kat situ . tak ade rupa menteri langsung . Lepas ni ramai plak buat video atas saranan aku ni . Start plak viral orang buat video sana sini . Tapi tolonglah jangan buat video memalukan diri sendiri macam kapel 2 minggu ke ? video pengakuan cinta ke ? video porno sendiri ke ( ni kalau aku jumpa org ni depan depan aku perembat dia sampai lunyai , takde keje langsung ) dan yg tak sepatutnya lah . Aku tak membebel kat sini pun korang boleh pikir sendiri kan ape dia . Jangan letakkan mentaliti kita di paras kelemasan dek terikutkan nafsu , hati , populariti , hasutan orang lain sebab semua tu tak kekal lama . aku paling tak boleh blah kalau hal macam ni jadi viral remaja sekarang  . Sebab tu media sosial ni sebenarnya memainkan peranan penting , dalam menyedarkan , dan dalam menangani masalah ni . Supaya tidak rosal akhlak mereka terutama sekali yg beragama islam  . Akhlak kalau tak dijaga , akan runtuhkan seseorang muslim itu . tapi media massa juga melalui sosial website , applikasi sosial telah menunjukkan kelemahan sesuatu individu itu sendiri bila mereka gunakan dengan jalan yang salah .

* tetiba jadi ustaq tak bertauliah kejap *

dah besar panjang dah siti sifir , Along je macam tu jugak , haha 

Cite pasal gwiyomi ni teringat masa zaman dulu dulu , aceceh , macam aku ni dah tua sangat je  , ingat lagi tak dengan LAGU SIFIR COMEL MACAM SITI SIFIR ALONG TU ? dengar rhythm dia sekali. Epik kot. Aku ingat sampai sekarang... 1x2=2 , 3x2=6...

Sudahlah comel, berfaedah plak tu . Dapat jugak menghafal sifir. Dah tua bangka nie sifir selalu kantoi... ye la dah boleh pakai kalkulator sekarang 1 x 1  pun nak tekan kalkulator. Nampak tak kebingaian dia kat situ . zaman kekanak dulu aku suka la tengok , time zaman sekarang bagi kat anak buah aku . Macam takda perasaan . Bila lagu oppa gangnam style , dia punya gelek tak hengat . Berat betul kalau aku fikirkan zaman dulu dgn yg sekarang . Begitu banyak kelainan dia kat situ . Sampai aku kadang kadang gelengkan kepala memikirkan masalah ni . Apa aku boleh simpulkan . Zaman dah berubah . jadi takleh samakan yg dlu yg sekarang , takleh nak sama cicak dgn siput sedut , sebab dari dulu dorang memang tk penah berjumpa . ok sangat merepek kat situ  , kbye .

p/s : Kau jangan tanya kenapa tetiba ada awek comel korea boleh nyanyi lagu sifir 2 dalam bahasa melayu. haha .

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I can never do

How ?  Only yourself noticed , that moment has multiple combat alert . I do not deny that sometimes I was invincible universe big freak ; sometimes even do not understand , then gradually evolved into not define . Try to smile and laugh , what a mess not disguise disguised interpretation ; laughed, genuinely enjoying himself laughing when ordered reasons . Nobody wants to contradict themselves . One of the reasons a lot of things out is unknown , it seems no need to explain ; exchange standpoint , you might want to know how this man has always been happy.

      As for how things so complicated funny , others are at most only know a little, not empathy. There are many things you can not explain , so I had to enjoy a good show in the next ; then play the script, which has been misunderstood villains . Not want to explain , does not represent the facts are distorted accepted . Say turn dead end , which is full of sharp corners rationale clearly and logically . Is fiercely poke each other's mask , just do a little hand in cahoots .

      I think I have already stated our position very clear , in some degree of action . I'm just an ordinary person , there are certain limits. I am not a saint can forgive everything , can not make everyone like me because I am not God. Anyway , then there is always a straight road turnoff .

Illusion

Emptiness , the continuation of illusion. Illusion of ideological interference . Ideas, bundled free .

     A spiritual , intermittent rotation of such gear . The dose of the medicine for a whole day , it may not be able to uncover the illusion of solitude . Began confusion. Open the refrigerator looking for cooling the brain prescription , but only got scared .

     Overcast exceptionally moving. Wanted to continue the dream last night , and finally get down to sleep. Only one corner of the room is empty , no lights , a little blues music ; compromise with me and tired . Wake up lonely cold when found , but an enthusiasm began to have temperatures. Then boil a cup of coffee concentration , the compensation to be emptied self-complementary emotions.

     Color, tired . Like humanity , like many breathtaking . Suddenly want to shed extravagant colors between the white and the black to interpret some of the records. Accumulation of too many dreams and illusions, sometimes overestimated have not seen any of their own, but also no less than give . I can do nothing but accumulated little by little .

     Eyes closed , ears to listen . Less visual seduction found eardrums tremble. Many want to leave it all illusion. Yes, but an illusion .

    Freedom, give thought. Ideas, create a false impression . Illusion , stacked empty.


note : pleasure may come from illusion , but happiness can come only of reality .